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Whether I'm nutty (which I know and accept) or it's confirmation bias, I tend to notice several people that I know who are about to turn 30 or are 30 who come to an especially challenging fork in the road.

An obstacle or series of events in their life, more than at any other point, that brings on self-doubt or insecurities or a general existential funk that seems to creep in out of nowhere. A soul search begins if they set time aside to understand and be patient with how dragged out it feels. Like a ball-and-chain at the bottom of the ocean, some sink into despair and go to extremes, and some don't make it out of the darkness. The '27 Club' comes to mind.

There's no formula or exact moment when it starts or finishes, but as I experienced, it's felt by only the individual and it's a crisis of confidence, but a blessing in disguise because it forces you to double down on what you value in yourself and others and to commit to something that maybe you've held off on or had doubts about. The decisions made at this time influence the years ahead, not to be cliche, but too late.

There's no instant gratification here; it may feel like a mile is taken for every inch, but keeping your chin up despite it all only sets you up later to feel empowered once it subsides; you're forced to take the long way home so that the lesson gets drilled in (and that the tough love was worth the struggle). A rites of passage into the adult realm, but still encouraged to be young at heart.
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If the little things fire me up
The big ones are sure to set me ablaze
This is great news for a pyromaniac
Unrecognizable to all but a few
Since layers are lost and replaced
It shows how little the appearance held true
And how much words and actions keep the lights on
And why landing on the hot seat makes or breaks
Choices in the heat of the moment can simmer for a time
Consequences are the little fires coming up the cracks
From sparks of joy and pangs of resentment
To the unexpected hellos and goodbyes in places far and wide
I try to find the warmth in things, big and small
That's one way to break the ice
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The light rises down below
Gradients play like an old tape
Left on repeat since who knows when
I merely walked in on it

Nothing in particular stands out
Yet the painstaking rehearsals seemed to pay off
Because everything flows together
Words are futile, but here I am
It's quite a sight if I merely look where I dare not see it
Just for a blink as it drains into memory

And at such a peak moment, the end begins
The air grows quiet and the usual noises soon take their place
I merely listen
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